Heirlooms

Our visit went really well today. Great Grandma Harmon seems to be holding up fairly well. Her skin is more yellow than I thought it would be, that's from the bile buildup. Her spirits were good though and she was laughing and telling stories as usual. We got to go over to her house and take the things we wanted and it was so strange. I felt somewhat uncomfortable, but was glad to be able to do it. I got some bread pans, I don't have any, but have always wanted some and I remember hot bread cooling in those same pans. I also got a hand knitted poncho, a baby blanket for Kathryn, some yarn, a bunch of flannel material to make blankets with, some barbie dolls again for Kathryn, Some raffia and thread. I think that is everything, oh and a toaster oven. It was also hard to see her looking like that, she has always seemed so vibrant. The doctor said this week that she is 3 months ahead of were he thought she would be at this point. We are on a accelerated time frame now. I don't think she will make it until Kathryn's first birthday. I didn't want to say goodbye when it was time to leave. I'm glad that we got to go and we did have a really nice visit. Grandma got to hold Kathryn for a while, and she was all smiles. The hardest thing for me is that Katy won't get to know her, because she won't remember ever being around her. I've always been so blessed to have my grandparents and I wish the same for her. We did get a really wonderful 5 generation picture and I'm so glad for that. I can't wait to see how it turns out!

Sunday Visit

Tomorrow we are going to visit Great Grandma. I'm really looking forward to it and we are going to take a 5 generation picture. That will be such a priceless keepsake!! I'm going to have a 8x10 made and hang it on the wall. Grandma asked us all to write down some memories of her for a little book she is putting together. It was one of the hardest things I've ever tried to put into words. I pretty much bawled the whole time I was working on it. I tried to think about how I would feel if I knew that I would be dying soon and how I would want to be remember. Lucky for Grandma, she has always been such a sweet lady there was nothing bad to write about. Regardless it was so hard, and made the situation seem so final. Usually you sit and recall your memories AFTER someone has passed on, not BEFORE. I just hope and pray that these are helpful for her and something she can reflect on in the quiet moments.

It's official Episode #2

I can't believe that I forgot about this. I mean I didn't forget about this, I just forgot to write about it. On Thursday the doctor cleared Kathryn to go back to the daycare center. Yippee!! She is officially over the chicken pox. Now if we could just all get back to our normal sleep schedules I'd be a happy camper.

Thirteen Things about JENN 1.) I don't really like ice cream. If I do eat it, I only eat a little bit and it's only a couple of times a year. If I buy a carton of ice cream, I will eat 1 scoop and then the rest sits there for 6 months before I throw it out. Most people think this is weird. 2.) My family always tell me I'm funny. I like to do impressions and make funny faces and tell jokes. My friends tell me I'm a nerd for doing these things. So now I only do it around my family. 3.) When I was a kid I was going to be a marine biologist and live in California on the beach. 4.) I like to mix certain foods together, I think they taste better that way. The best combination is mashed potatoes, gravy, corn and stuffing. Stir it all together and take a big bite. 5.) I used to think that a toilet monster lived in the basement drain in my childhood home. This was because my older brother would flush the upstairs toilet when I went down there making the drain gurgle and churn. 6.) Sometimes I'm not sure if the things I say are true or if I just made them up. I read a lot and sometimes when I'm talking I'll spout off some random bit of information and then later I think "wow, is that really true. That's kind of cool." And I don't ever remember where I got it from. 7.) I'm addicted to talk radio, but no one knows. I love Dr. Laura and want to meet her some day. I try to listen to her every night when I get home from work. 8.) I used to have a crush on a boy, until I heard a rumor that he was gay. Then I found out it wasn't true and I couldn't deny that even if he had been gay I still would have loved him. 9.) I once pretended I was sick on a date, just so I could go and see my dates friend. That friend is now my husband and my date is now married to someone else. 10.) When I was little my dad told me that if I didn't cover my ears at night a vampire would come and bite them off. I believed him and to this day cover my ears before I go to sleep. 11.) I'm afraid of the dark, really I am. However I love scary movies and don't watch them anymore because I have recurring nightmares for months at a time. 12.) I have an overactive imagination and often times hear and/or see things that aren't really there. 13.) I'm very gullible and unless it's WAY out there, I will believe most anything anyone tells me. This makes my husband nervous and he says that some day I will loose all my money to some scam.

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Celebrity Love Match

Gross, How did I end with this guy. He's old!! I don't even really know who he is! He is old enough to be my FATHER! Take the test here for yourself and see if you end up with an old fogey! Although my other choices weren't that great either, except maybe Mel Gibson. He's pretty hot for an old guy. I do like his acting, but I don't think I'd want to sleep with him!

Your Celebrity Match is: Kevin Spacey

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Sisters

Oh my heck. I just got off the phone with my sister and we talked for 2 hours 41 minutes and 33 seconds. For most sisters this is probably a normal thing, but for us it is not. Usually our conversations go something like this: Me: hey, how's it going Her: good, how are you Me: good thanks. So are you coming this weekend or next. Her: this weekend, guess we'll see you on Saturday at moms Me: okay, sounds good. luv you bye. Her: luv you too, bye. Not this time though, we talked and talked and talked and talked. We talked so long that both of our husbands gave up and went to bed, believing that we had forgotten about them. When we were younger, excluding our teenage years of course, we got along really well. Then I got obnoxious and thought I new everything and by the time I got past that, she was in the same stage. By the time she got out of that stage I had moved away from home, and was engaged. Then I got too involved in my own life and got too wrapped up with myself. I kind of pushed her away, because I felt like we couldn't relate anymore. She was still in high school and I was out on my own, working full time experiencing life. After I got married I really felt like we didn't have anyway to relate and that we were just too different, or some dumb excuse like that. The real problem was that I was selfish and too involved in my own stuff to make a better effort. Then she got engaged and I thought she was too young, and didn't know what she was doing and was rushing into things. She probably thought I was the biggest witch and that I was so pushy. I can be pretty pushy when I think I'm right, which is pretty much all the time, so I guess she would have been right. Anyway, long story short, now that I've been married a few years and have a kid and she has been married almost a year, I think we are doing much better. I understand now that she relates to me more than I give her credit for. Also she is more intelligent and observant than I give her credit for. She is happily married and doing great. I'm glad that we are getting along better and that we had such a good talk tonight. I hope that we can keep that up. I've decided that I will make more time for long phone calls with her, even if it means my husband going to bed without me!!

Four

How well do you know me?? For instance, did you know...

Four jobs I have had in my life: 1. Realtor

2. Music Store CSR for wholesale products

3. Nanny to four children - 3 of them were triplets

4. Pizza Place

Four movies I would watch over and over: 1. So I married an Axe Murderer

2. Hope Floats 3. Napoleon Dynamite 4. Moulin Rouge Four TV shows I love to watch: 1. Arrested Development

2. Simpsons

3. Lost

4. Desperate housewives (I know some of these aren't on any longer, at least I think maybe some of them aren't on. We actually don't have a cable hookup of any kind. I collect TV series on DVD when they come out.)

Four places I have been on vacation: 1. Portland, Oregon

2. Basically all the coastal town in between San Fran and LA, California

3. Yellowstone National Park

4. Phoenix, Arizona

Four web-sites I visit daily: 1. My Yahoo! 2. Blogger 3. The Reign of Ellen 4. Gmail

Four of my favorite foods: 1. Mexican, especially flautas and Mole. 2. Pasta

3. Chinese

4. Potato salad (but only my mother-in-laws)

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. Portland, OR

2. British Columbia, Canada

3. Monterey Bay, CA 4. Boise, ID What are some things that I maybe don't know about you. You can put some of your favorites in the comments. I would love to hear them!

Daddy's

Katy and John spent the day together, since little Miss Chicken Pox hasn't cleared up quite yet. The day went really well for them both. John said he really enjoyed it and that for the most part she was really good. He even ventured a trip to the mall with her. She ate really good for him and took a 2 hour morning nap. He had a bit of trouble getting her down this afternoon though and she was having a hard time when I got home. I think she might be teething again. John said she was really chewing on stuff today and she has a runny nose again. She was happy to see me when I got home, which really made my day. I also realized how much I missed her. Especially after having all these days at home with her last week. All in all she seems to be much better and I hope tomorrow will be the last day that we need to stay home. I'm so glad that John not only could, but WOULD stay home with her. Not many fathers would, at least the ones I've known. He not only stayed home with her, he also watched her favorite movie, crawled around on the floor with her, took her to the mall, and for a walk. He even cleaned up the front room a bit and made dinner for us. He is so great, I just don't know what I would do without him.

Yeah!! I'm not a slacker mom!!

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E Three

For those of you that don't know, I married a man who is a SERIOUS GAMER. Just ask him! He has been counting down the day to the 'E Three' show coming up in 14 days. This is when Xbox, PlayStation, Nintendo and all the other gaming companies get together to showcase their products. The reason my husband has been anxiously awaiting this event is for one reason and one reason only! Nintendo will be announcing it's release date and other specifics for it's new gaming console, code name: revolution. Yippeee!!! This is all that has been talked about in our house for the last 4 months or so. Our evenings usually proceed as such: DH - you'll never believe what I heard today about the 'revolution.' ME - what DH - they are saying now that you will be able to use your controller to.... blah, blah, blah, blah. No, really some it sounds cool and like it would be fun. For sure it sounds innoventive and interesting. Video games are just not really my thing. Since we've been married, which is just over 3 years, we've had a PlayStation 2, an Xbox, a Nintendo GameCube (we still have that one) and a Nintendo DS, which is like an upgraded Gameboy. Now I will admit that the DS is pretty cool. It has a touch screen that you use a stylus on to do different things and is quite addicting depending on the game, but regardless of how fun they are, I truly feel that they are a waste of time and money. The bad thing is that I can't stop playing the dumb thing. I'm not into shooting games or weird role playing games, but I love EVERY game we have for the DS. There is Tetris, (which is my all time favorite,) WarioWare, Nintendogs (which is so realistic looking,) TraumaCenter (you use the stylus like a scalpel and perform surgery,) Mario Kart (which is a kiddie level racing game, at least I can win,) BrainAge (which tests and strengthens your brain by doing simple mental exercises.) Anyway I'm so addicted to this machine that we have been fighting over who gets to play it and who has played it longer that day. Again proving my point that games are a waste of time and money. Now my Dear Husband wants to buy me one for Christmas. I just can't agree with this for 2 reasons. 1.) the money, the unit itself it upwards of $170.00 Then you have to buy the games which are $20.00 to $30.00 a piece. 2.) I would NEVER get anything done ever again. I would just sit on my butt all day and play the dang thing.

Milestones

Katy crawled for the first time on Sunday. I was so overjoyed I could have just about cryed. She has been trying for so long and it has been aggravating some days to watch her try so hard, to no avail. We are passed that now and buzzing ahead. Now that she has figured it out, she of course is starting to do it much more. She even crawled across the rug tonight into my arms. The best thing is when she stops crawling and sits back up, she claps her little hands, wrinkles her nose up and grins as big as she can! "Look what I did!"

Are we There Yet???!!!

This is how I feel everytime I look at my baby's spots. They are getting better, but we are still waiting on about a bakers dozen or so to scab over. She spent the day with Grandma again today, we be with her dad tomorrow and me on Wednesday. Hopefully we "will be there" and we can all go back to our somewhat normal routines.

I hate it!!

The weather that is!! Yesterday was a beautiful day and we enjoyed it to the fullest. John, Katy and I went to the park and enjoyed a picnic along with the warm, wonderful, sunny, sunshine. We layed around on a blanket for several hours just soaking up the sun. We couldn't really go anywhere because Katy's spot's haven't quite cleared up yet. Anyway it was as I said a wonderful day and we loved being outside. Today we went to John's parents house which is in the country surrounded by lots of great shade trees and rolling grass. We thought it would be another great day to lounge in the sun. No such luck! It was windy and cold and cloudy and just plain yucky! Then on the way home it started to sprinkle, and the clouds were getting darker and looking more ominous by the minute. Now I've checked the weather report and it's supposed to rain for the next 3 days! I wish this stupid weather would make up it's mind. warm, cold, warm, cold, warm, cold......... aaarrrrgggghhhhh!!! At least we got to enjoy the sun yesterday as a family!

Day Five

Well I think we are almost through all the spottiness. Katy has about 80% of her spots scabbed over, so it looks like we will be done by Monday. She spent the day with Grandma and was in much better spirits. When I went to pick her up, she was laughing and playing, much more like herself. Grandma will have her again on Monday and I really think she will be able to go back to the child care center on Tuesday. I was so glad to be back to work today. My house is a wreck and I was sick of looking at it and having no time to do anything about it. Working from home was kind of nice, but it also kind of sucked. Everytime I would try to start laundry, or dishes, or clean the bathroom, the phone would ring and there was something else that I needed to take care of. The only bad thing about going back to day, was I felt like I was in a total funk!! I couldn't remember what the date was and for part of the day I kept thinking it was Wednesday, instead of Friday. Then I got the actual date mixed up and kept writing the 19th, instead of the 21st. I felt really out of the loop, like I'd lost touch with all our clients and what I needed to take care of. The day went really quickly and I think I'll be doing better next week.

Spotty

I have taken to calling Katy "spotty." John has been calling her "chicky" or "poxy." I hope we haven't given her a life long complex with these names. It just that she's got them everywhere and it's hard not too. She seems to be doing much better today. Has had some "real" food ie: not just formula or water. Is sleeping better and playing more. I'm so very grateful to see her feeling better, I hate it when she is sick and I've not slept good, because I've been worrying too much. Now hopefully I will be able to sleep and get caught up on some rest of my own. Katy will stay with Grandma tomorrow while I get to go back to work. Yippee!!! I never thought I would be excited to go back. It's been a tough week and really different from just being home for the day, because of vacation or myself being sick. Now that we have this remote thing hooked up at the office it's way different. I can't be cleaning and doing laundry. Everytime I try to get something done, the phone rings, or my e-mail starts coming back in and people need reply's. Plus having a sick child to tend to, while trying to work hasn't been fun. I'll be glad to be back in the office and getting something accomplished. (I hope)

Oh yeah, Easter

I don't mean as in oh yeah, like no big deal. I mean oh yeah, like I forgot to tell everyone what happened at Easter. Be warned this post will probably be lengthy and full of ranting, so continue at your own peril. Our niece was being blessed on Sunday and because of that a lot of John's family was here from out of town. Our uncle Barry, his wife Eileen, their two daughters Jen and Michelle. Michelle's husband Gold and their son Josh. John's oldest brother Rich, his new girlfriend Tricia, and her two daughters Darcie and Annie. Also everyone who lives here was there. John's parents, his sister Melissa, her husband Travis, their son Bryden and daughter Kaitlyn (the one being blessed.) And who could forget Rex (john's other brother) and his wife Patty. John's parents don't have a very large house and it was packed. Now there are a few things you should know before I continue with my rant. 1.) this is the first time John and I have met Tricia (the new girlfriend,) and her children. 2.) first impressions can often times be deceiving and wrong. 3.) I do not get along very well with Patty. (I used to but things have happened between her and I that haven't been good.) The weekend was a mess. Anytime you get that many people in a house together things are bound to happen, especially when some of those people don't get along real well to begin with. Example: Rich and Patty, myself and Patty, John and Patty, let's face it pretty much everyone and Patty. It's not that we don't like her, we just don't get along with her very well because she is so uptight and different from all of us. It's hard to get along with someone who is so difficult. Anway back to what happened. Patty thinks that Jen (our cousin) really likes her and that they are good friends. In fact she is always telling us how well her and Jen get along. The truth is Jen is like the rest of us, she likes Patty, she just really isn't her favorite person. So Patty starts almost following Jen around the house, talking pretty much non stop. Actually she wasn't THAT bad, you could just tell that Jen was getting annoyed. The thing I hate most about Patty is that I always feel like I'm in a competition with her. I HATE that. If you're better at something than me, well good for you. If someone likes you more than me, well good for you. If you've done something that I've never done, well good for you. You get the picture. All weekend it was like who is Jen's best friend? Patty or Melissa or Me? Who cares? I like Jen and she seems to like me back. We've had some really good talks, always have fun and giggle a lot when we're together. Patty acts like we can't all be friends. I feel like she wants to only be friends with Jen and if Melissa or I are friends with Jen, well that's just not cool, because Jen is PATTY's friend. Just annoys me to no end. Even if Jen didn't like me and only liked Patty, well that would be okay with me too. Not everyone likes everyone else, I know that and except that, I wish a certain someone would get that. Sorry, but I told you this would be long. On to my real issue from the weekend. Richard's new girlfriend and her children. Now I want you all to keep in mind that Richard is recently divorced, (less than six months) has five kids, and was married for 17 years. Him having a girlfriend and coming up to visit with children that aren't his is a bit odd for us all. Needless to say I was excited to meet Tricia and get to know her a bit, since it sounds like they are going to be getting married. So here are my observations based upon a first impression: 1.) That girl has patience, she was very calm and mellow the whole weekend. Really laid back and easy going. 2.) She is quiet. So quiet in fact that I know nothing about her. She didn't talk to ANYONE. 3.) She is obviously shy. Seeing as how she didn't talk, sat by Rich the whole time, and again didn't talk. 4.) She is a follower. Anything we suggested she did. We really like games with teams, Catch Phrase is one of our favorites. When asked if she had a favorite game or would like to play a certain game Tricia always looked to Richard first, to see what he wanted to do, would then shrug and say "whatever you guys want to do." 5.) Her youngest child how should I say this? Is a monster!!! This kid got away with everything. Rich says it because when she goes to stay with HER dad it makes Annie behave badly, because he doesn't make her mind. As far as I can tell either does her mother. Annie (tricia's daughter, she's 3 by the way.) broke a curtain rod, ripped pages out of books, broke a toy truck, made a disaster area when coloring eggs, kept getting into the cake that was for dinner, was looking through dresser drawers, throwing things, taking toys from other kids, pushing, spitting (at one point right in Richard's face!,) yelling, screaming, crying, etc.... There were two big problems with this A) she was never punished or scolded, most of the time her mother acted like it never happened. B) Tricia didn't keep an eye on her! Tricia was too busy hanging on Richard. ~Sidenote~ If I took my child to someone else's house, ESPECIALLY someone I had just met. I would not let them out of my sight. If for some reason something did happen and it was brought to my attention, I would make sure the child was punished for it. I mean come on, you don't let your kids run wild at other people's houses. ~end of Sidenote~ Now I'm just really rambling on. Tricia was nice and everyone seems to like her, but I can tell that (speaking for myself) I think we might have some issues ahead. I will only put up with bad behavior from kids for so long. Although I have a feeling if I were to step in she wouldn't care anyway. In fact she would probably be grateful that she didn't have to be the mean mom and could let someone else do it. Oh well, it really doesn't matter what I think. If Richard is happy, well then it's none of my business and I really do wish true happiness for him. He has had a rough marriage and lots of rough things happen to him lately. If he is happy, then I will buck up and play nice. It might be a struggle, but it's what you do for family!! All in all Easter was nice and it was good to see everyone, It's just that I can always find something to gripe about, as you've probably noticed.

Day Three

Day Three at home with the chicken pox. How fun it is becoming!! Katy is just miserable and crying all the time. I feel so bad for her, there is nothing I can do. John is having a really hard time with it too. He just sat and rocked her and snuggled her and kissed her when he got home. She wanted her Daddy all day long and was really glad to see him at the end of the day. At one point I went into the nursery and she was asleep on his chest and he had tears streaming down his face. When I asked him what was wrong, he looked up and said "I just feel so bad when she's sick, I wish I could take it all away, and have them myself for her!" Now if that isn't a good dad I don't know what is. She does seem a bit better this morning, at least she played for a bit, but then just wanted rocked and to go back to sleep.

It's official

Katy has chicken pox! The poor thing, she is starting to get itchy today and keeps trying to scratch her head. She has been getting mad at me when I move her hands away. I tried putting socks on her hands, but that didn't last long, because she doesn't understand why she can't grab things. I feel so bad for her. Just looking at her makes ME want to start scratching. The good news is that she won't have to have her shot when the time comes, and that we won't have to worry about this later. The bad thing is, she can't go to daycare and I'm staying home with her for at least a week, if not more. We have my office computer set up as a remote location and I'm able to do a lot of stuff from home, but it's still a pain and not overly productive. It's better than nothing though and at least I'm still able to get paid. My mom is going to stay with her on Friday and also Monday. If she isn't doing better by then John will take the day off Tuesday to stay with her. Hopefully she will be better by then and we won't have to worry about it.

Spots

Katy has spots all over!! I'm not sure what they are, but I think it might be chicken pox. The only thing is I'm not sure how she could have gotten them. She hasn't been around anyone kids that have had them. She seems to be fine, not overly grumpy or even acting itchy. This also baffles me and makes me unsure what they might be. I'm too new of a mommy to have much experience in this area. So my mommy came over and looked at her and gave me some tips. Here is what she DOES have: small red bumps on her head, tummy, legs, butt, arms, and in her ears. The are a tiny bit raised and have a bit of a white on the top. Here is what she DOESN'T have: a fewer, isn't scratching, isn't fussy, isn't crying a lot. I've been all over the internet, and I really think it's chicken pox. But here's the pictures. Does anyone have any ideas? I'll keep you posted and we've decided no matter what she is going to the doctor tomorrow morning so we can find out what it is.

Looks like I'm lazy! Tell me something I didn't already know!!

For those of you that know me, I'm somewhat lazy. I really don't do things that I don't want to do. I would rather play than work, sleep than be awake, ride than walk, etc..... So here are my results from the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	High

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Engrish

Here are some samples from my favorite new website to puruse when I'm bored. Engrish. com has many wonderful examples of mistakes made with the english language. While I'm guilty of bad grammer, or spelling errors at time, I've never been THIS bad!!! "Cookies anyone?" Or who could forget that questionable smell? Or my personal favorite. The kid on CRACK!! ( please keep in mind that I have nothing against the japanese, in fact I'm fascinated by most of their culture. None the less, this stuff is a riot!! )

Lonely

Our house in lonely once again, and I'm so grateful. My grandma was here from Boise for 3 days and it was a really nice visit, but I'm glad she is gone. I love when people come to visit, but sometimes it's better when they go back home. It depends on who is visiting and how long. I took Monday off and was going to take Tuesday and part of Wednesday, but I ended up just doing Monday, because I had already had enough of her. My grandma is kind of weird and can also be overwhelming, but I still love her. I'm just not used to her as much as I used to be. She has lived so far away for like 8 years now, she used to live just down the street. Anyway I'm starting to ramble again. I will post some pictures and things later from when she was here.

Happy days are here again!!!

We FINALLY have the internet at home. We have survived the real world without the World Wide Web (barely) for over 3 years now. I'm overjoyed to be sitting in the comfort of my OWN home and browsing the net. No longer trying to get e-mail checked at work, or my parents house. Now I can really keep up on my blog and everything else internet related that I'm addicted to. It took all dang day to get this thing up and running, but at least it's up now. I just love, love, love it!! I have even signed up for a GoToMyPC account, so that I can access my work computer from home. That will be so nice too, maybe I won't have to spend as many hours at the office. YIPPEE!!!! Well because it took so long to get this working, I'm getting really sleepy right now. I think I'll go hit the hay and get a fresh start with this tomorrow. Ciao!!!

Oddly enough

Now that I have a child there are a few things that have changed drastically. 1.) when I walk into a room, no one cares that I'm there. No, it's "hi Kathryn," "Katy Bug," "look over here Katy," "Kathryn look what I got you." I no longer get told YOU should visit more often, instead it's "I haven't seen this baby forever, you need to bring her by more often." 2.) more people visit our home, to see Kathryn of course! For instance why is it that my grandmother who moved to Boise about 6 years ago, (after living down the street all my life) has been back to town for four events. a) my wedding b) my sisters wedding c) when Kathryn was 4 weeks old d) and this weekend, Katy is now 9 months old. Every other time we've seen Grandma since her moving is because WE went to visit her. 3.) I don't care as much about my appearance, not because I've become more of a slob or anything. Just because crushed graham crackers on my pants, or peaches on my shirt doesn't seem so bad as it used to. If I'm tired in the morning, which is 90% of the time, I only do the bare minimum to get ready for work. example: shower, brush hair, get dressed. No makeup, no fancy hair do, no accessories, no perfume, no hair spray, etc. Now keep in mind this is not because I don't like to do these things, or look nice. It's simply because I'm too tired to make the effort. 4.) before Kathryn was born I got all this snark from my mother and mother-in-law about how they were not free babysitters, so don't expect them to babysit every weekend, and certainly don't expect them to babysit on short notice. Let me just tell you grandmas are full of B.S. My mom and MIL now give me snark if I DON'T let them babysit. I've paid a babysitter one time and will never make that mistake again, it's not worth all the crap I caught from them. I'm sure as time goes on I will notice more things about life with a child versus my life without one. Seriously though, even though I get ignored more often than not, I'm glad that Katy has so many wonderful people to love and help take care of her.

Journals

I used to write in a journal all the time when I was younger. I even started a journal for my daughter, but I haven't been very good about writing in it. In highschool I wrote almost everyday, about almost everything. It always felt good to write things down and get them out there. Now I mostly gripe to my husband about things that bother me. Occasionally though, it just feels really good to sit down and pour my soul out all over the pages of a journal, when I have the time. Computers have made journaling much easier, example this blog. I've made more entries into it, then I have for a long time in my paper journal. However I don't think that EVERYTHING should be shared with EVERYONE else. Some of the blogs I've read are just astounding. People write things that I would only write down if I was going to burn the paper afterward, or mail it to PostSecret. I mean come on people, that really is an overshare!! For instance there are certain things that I could never, and would never write here, for the mere fact that quite a bit of my family members read my blog. I don't want to hurt someone's feelings, or start some kind of a fight. I also don't want all my family to know everything about me. That said here is my entry for today. Stupid people: I really hate it when people call you and they just kind of ramble on, about nothing really important, just tell you random stuff. Oh, my heck it annoys me. I'm not a counselor, I'm not trained to help people with their problems, I'm certainly not patient enough. That's just to begin with. Do I really care?!! Probably not, if you have created these problems for yourself, then you should take care of them yourself. Enough said!! I don't go around telling anyone that will listen about my problems, because I know that most people don't care. Especially people that barely know you. I mean come on, I just want to sell you a house and get on with it. I want to make sure you find a nice house, one that you like, but I'm not qualified to solve all the problems you have that you don't want to bring into that house. Okay, that's enough rambling today and I hope it wasn't an overshare.

No, Mama

Katy just started, on Friday saying Mama and Dada. Every time she says dada, I correct her and say "no, Mama!!!" She just smiles, nods her head and says dada, da, da, and a bunch of baby chatter. All weekend long, she just gibbered away. It was so funny to listen to her. I just loved it!! She still isn't crawling, but getting darn close. Don't worry, I'll keep you updated as to when it happens.

Have your cake, and eat it too!!

Katy eating her first piece of Chocolate Cake. She was a mess, but she sure enjoyed it, as you can tell from the big grin on her face.